From Infrared to Inner Shifts
(and My Dog Still Wants My Cheeseburger)
I woke up this morning, did my glow routine, did my vlog like I always do, rushed out the door to get my son to school, and headed straight to Life Time clinic.
From there I went and sat in the infrared sauna with the salt blaster you breathe in for 20-40 minutes and just let my body settle for a second.
After that I headed home, Evan was back from school, and right as I’m getting ready to leave for the office it hits me—oh shit… it’s NAD day.
Completely forgot.
Again.
And it was also time for his B12 injection, so we had one of those “hold on, pause everything real quick” moments, got both of our injections in, and then just went right back to moving through the day like nothing even happened.
Which honestly feels normal at this point.
Then I headed into the office immediately went into message mode—talking to potential clients about my glow, answering questions, and also getting myself set up for something that honestly still doesn’t feel real.
I’m officially locked in for a retreat. Deposit paid. Plane tickets booked.
September 20.
And I cannot wait.
This will be the first time I’ve taken a trip for me in over three years… and I’m doing it with high energy women who actually get it. That alone feels like a whole shift.
In the middle of all that, I had a one hour massage and then a 90 minute massage, and both were absolutely amazing.
The second session… we had to go really gentle. She had really sore ribs, so it wasn’t about pushing or forcing anything. It was slow, intentional, energetic. Melting tissue, working fascia, just letting the body release instead of trying to make it.
And I’m telling you… some of the energy that came up out of her, I can’t even put into words. You could feel it shifting.
Those are the moments that remind me why I do what I do.
After that I came home, putzed around—I honestly don’t even remember what I did—and then took off for yoga.
Yoga hit.
Like… one of those classes where your body and your mind are both processing at the same time and you don’t even realize how much you needed it until you’re in it.
Came home from yoga and ended up getting a message from someone I haven’t talked to in a long time… and we’ve been talking all night.
And it’s been really, really good.
Like… the kind of conversation where someone is actually seeing you. Telling you they’re proud of you. Noticing your growth. Connecting on things like complex PTSD, raising neurodivergent kids… real life shit.
It’s a whole different level of connection.
And I’m sitting here in it like… how is this my life right now?
Because it wasn’t always like this.
Not even close.
And now somehow I’m surrounded by people, opportunities, conversations that actually match who I’ve become.
That part still messes with my head a little.
But in a good way.
And of course… because it’s me… it’s already 9 o’clock at night, I haven’t eaten, so I had to order food for my son and I.
All I wanted was a damn double cheeseburger.
Got it from Red Robin this time, so we’re calling it “slightly healthier” 😂
And now I’m sitting here trying to eat it while my dog is literally panting next to me like he hasn’t eaten in weeks.
Full stare. No shame. Just breathing heavy waiting for his moment.
He’s such a goofy animal.
And honestly… this whole day feels like that.
A little all over the place, a little deep, a little funny, a little “is this really my life right now?”
But it is.
And for once… I’m not trying to outrun it.
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