What the Hell Is Even Happening?

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The last couple of days have been absolutely wild.

As always, I started my morning with my Glow Getter routine and morning vlog because those are non-negotiables around here. No matter what is happening in my life, those things get done. Then I got some really exciting news. I was approved to increase my NAD dosage and immediately ordered it. Y’all, this one is huge for me. Not because it’s just a dosage increase, but because there was a time in my life when I used to dream about being able to afford NAD. I knew the benefits and wanted it to be part of my health journey, but it just wasn’t realistic back then. Now not only is it part of my routine, but my body has adapted enough that I get to increase my dosage. Sometimes I have to stop and remind myself that a lot of things that are normal in my life today used to be things I only wished for.

After that I took Parker on a hike and got some really cute videos. Then it was back to reality and all the behind-the-scenes business stuff. Contracts, payroll, getting systems set up, adding my new employee to everything, and working through all the things that need to happen when you officially hire someone. Yep, I officially hired a new employee. Even typing that feels a little weird.

At the same time, I signed the paperwork and put down the money for my new apartment. Somewhere in the middle of dealing with payroll and business systems, somebody tried getting into one of my accounts because apparently life felt I needed a little extra excitement. Nothing says business ownership quite like handling employee onboarding while dealing with random technology nonsense.

One thing that really stood out to me today was listening to somebody explain why they couldn’t help me with something. Life happens. I wasn’t upset. But they spent so much time explaining every detail that all I could think was, “You know, you could have just said you couldn’t make it.” Then it hit me. I used to be that person. I used to explain everything. Every detail, every reason, every thought process. Now I find myself on the other side of it realizing I don’t actually need all the details. It wasn’t a bad thing. It was just one of those weird moments where you realize you’ve changed.

By the time I got to my last client, I was done peopling for the day. I ended up canceling, putting on the new bikini I bought two weeks ago for the first time, and honestly just enjoying the moment. That was followed by dropping a new memoir story because apparently I don’t know how to sit still for very long.

Then my mom called.

Out of everything that happened these last couple of days, that might have been one of my favorite parts. She wasn’t calling because there was a problem. She wasn’t calling because she needed something. She was calling because she wanted an update on my life. We talked about the business, the employee, the apartment, and everything else that has been happening lately.

As I was talking to her, I realized how strange life feels right now. Not bad strange. Good strange. The kind of strange where you look around and realize a lot of the things happening in your life today are things you used to pray for, work for, dream about, and hope would happen someday.

Life is still messy. People still disappoint you. Technology still acts ridiculous. But somewhere between the Glow Getter routine, hiking Parker, hiring an employee, signing for a new apartment, ordering my NAD, writing memoir stories, and getting a phone call from my mom, I found myself thinking the same thing over and over again.

What the hell is even happening?

And honestly, that’s some weird shit. I used to look up to people like me and now I’m sitting here trying to wrap my brain around the fact that this is my life. Some days it still doesn’t feel real. But I’m thoroughly enjoying it and learning that I’m deserving of it too.

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